1 july

so with the stamp of approval from my girly doctor at the 6 week mark, i can finally return to temple! the above date is next week, also the beginning of a new month & indicative of a new chapter to start in my shaolin training.
of course i fully expect to feel ill or hurl when i return or for a few weeks since it has been many months (short of 10 months actually) since i stopped kung fu training. i have not been the most lazy with the dogwalks, dance class while i was preggers & as of late car seat carrying (couldn't they make the damned thing lighter?) but it is very different from the high aerobic heart pounding & stretch required for shaolin. i already know my calves are gonna hate me but it's ok. we all have to start again at some point.
needless to say i must locate a special training bra some time soon. the one i have will have to do until i find one that will work. the beauty is that we sweat so much anyway, it will be hard to differentiate milk from sweat (or is it?). my worry of course will be the owwies there. that & i need to pace myself & not get too too carried away by the excitement. get in that zone. ooh & i get to do my hair in shaolin braids again! man, i am such a girl sometimes.
hee3. i am actually a little scared to go back. sifu may just show me no mercy! also i am a bit emotional after all my body & i have been through that i fear a mean (i.e. motivational) word from sifu may just make me cry. after all, i have had so few emotional moments during this time. i usually keep things in check. hell, i didn't even cry giving birth! well, i have to keep the spirits high & light. some of my shaolin friends are planning to be there to cheer me on, show some good CHI support & train with me. i only wish heng ji could be there too but he has snapdragon duty. soon we hope to train together again.
so send me good energy this upcoming tuesday. wish also for temperate weather & for my muscles to be pliable & for the mind to be open so i can train harder!