it's more than just blood

i have been on a strange kismet thing with my beautiful lola mama for a long time now. sure everyone usually loves their grandparents but she & i have a special connection. to say i have a soft spot for her is an understatement. i dreamt of her the other day & immediately called my mom since the dream was more like a nightmare. well, it turns out lola has been going to the hospital a lot lately as she is not feeling the best but she is checked out & sent home each time because the doctors agree she is in great shape. this frustrates her because she knows something is afoot yet no one takes her seriously. news is that the family is going to get her a private nurse to appease her & hopefully can help diagnose what the issue is. why are doctors secondguessing her? it's her body, she knows if something is up! anyway, by the time i get to the office, i find her letter waiting for me. talk about the same page. i had just written to her & sent photos of our cali trip the day before. i just wrote her again & enclosed the photos she asked for today.
lola mama & i are also penpals (if the above doesn't imply it well enough) & that is something i have also loved so much, our exchange of letters & ideas & current events within our lives. i know she lets my uncles & aunts read my letters & it doesn't bother me. although i bare my soul to lola, if asked on any of the myriad topics, my reply would probably be what my letters already say on any given subject. although when i first realized this i was shocked, i feel that i have nothing to hide from anyone really.
we were lucky to have had time with our grandparents (on my mom's side) growing up. we didn't have the closest relationship on the other side but that was beyond our doing at the time being kids. i will always cherish memories & words my lola has given me among material things too. she is a part of me, i know that now. i hope to make her happy with an abundance of letters coming her way & my eventual visit next year.