no training no temple time makes chadie something something

sadly i missed another night of training yesterday due to work. when will this stop? soon, i hope! [in fact i am at a meeting now with a borrowed laptop, stifling a yawn & looking busy by writing this, haha, i said, haha!] i did stay around the office to catch up & get ahead on some things & met up with quan tuo, skarbakka & heng jian for a little snack & beer at acme, like old times. just like old times, rudy treated us to his rendition of kamikaze shots, at the end.
when we got home after the quick dog runabout, quan tuo helped me work on my pubu chuanzhang lunbi zaquan. this move happens very quickly & lots of emphasis is placed on the arms when you are being taught it. really the focus should be: staying upright at the first move, balancing your body arms & legs pulling in opposite directions at the strike then pubu, gongbu, mabu, gongbu, pubu, gonbu then turn erect before the fist comes down. we practiced that a bit. it is much, much clearer now! thereafter he helped me with my fanyao, after asking me what i thought i needed work on to which i replied everything! the footwork is what we focused on which is good because i end up getting all flustered with the back bend & the arms! if you have the footwork down, the body will follow because it's all in the hips. sifu hasn't pulled me off for fanyao in a while now. but it's still good to practice. i think it's time for me to practice everything on both sides. there are many moves i don't do on both sides, fanyao being one of them. that has got to end!
here's a list of what needs practice on both sides:
fanyao
erqijao
ceshoufan
yangshen yunshuo
pubu
must work on this with a vengeance. training thursday no matter what! i was hoping to train mid-day today but this meeting won't get out til noon at least.

quan tuo has the teaching bug alright! sifu has been having him teach someone at every class he makes & these days he's training 5-6x a week. so great. it's like having my own personal master killa at home. teehee3

last night after getting my work done, i called my beloved lola mama. oh how great it was to hear her voice! she sounds wonderful & was feeling under the weather a bit but she is on the upswing. her mind is so strong despite the 98 years! i must, must, must manage to go & visit her & soon. this is a limited time offer & it is insane that we [us cousins] don't run over there any time we have a chance. she is our one & only lola left. i know my call made her happy. she always cries when i call & that makes me happy because they are tears of joy! when she said that she thought i was sore with her because i have not been writing, i felt terrible. i never want her to feel that way. also i know she so loves my letters but i have slacked in that there hasn't been time at the office to write her (typed letters) & writing her in my own hand is hard for her (for anyone) to read. but i must do better & train harder. i love lola mama so so much & i only want her to feel this love.

because it is all about the love dammit. i try very hard to remember this, as when earlier this week i heard from white lightning. i was so happy to hear from him but of course he made me sad. i just want to be able to see all the people i love & be in touch & be in each others lives. some say that that is not possible but i don't believe that. we all just have to accept & live our lives with joy for ourselves & for others. i know i am so very lucky to have so much love. i am grateful for that! i need to practice patience though. i think we all do. also we must forgo all ownerships & control to be able to forge lasting relationships with everyone we love.

amituofo!