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07 June 2007

all out of whack

i got to temple very early for what i correctly thought would be a painful class for me. i got warmed up quickly & even stretched alot. sifu was really active before people showed up. he said my ceshoufan required straighter arms & he reminded me of the same for lunbi caijiao. it was fun doing cetitui with heng tian. she & i were doing it together. people started coming in after 6:30 & the chi was good. i already felt winded but i kept going. then class started & it went pretty fast. i couldn't catch my breath & my heart was racing. the legs felt like jelly around xabu & it was all downhill from there. sifu pulled me off for tengkong fanyao, mostly because i was behind people who were slower (that's what i get for stepping out of line). at kung fu kindergarten, it was all a mess but i didn't want to be yelled at for talking. i did the 3man stretch with sucheela & charles, it was good. heart was still racing though. i felt wicked lightheaded for the remainder of the stretch but i kept going. back in kfk i told the guys to do 2 lines so we could go faster & it worked pretty well. my yangshen yunshuo was better but i was hurting. sifu asked heng li to work on my & another brother's pop during gongbu. that's when i started sweating really bad, uncontrollably & i could not catch my breath . it got a little scary & i had to ask permission to splash water on my face & rinse my mouth out then i went back. here is what was refined: i need to keep my head up, shoulders square with hips, take a larger step but to the side to open my hips & sink. i got a sharp pain in my foot which took 15 minutes to work itself out, like a cramp or what we would call calambre, like when you hit your funny bone. heng li was patient, he was concerned i was ill or something. i felt ill but kept going though at a slower pace. i thought i needed sugar but i did have an emergent-c so it should have been fine. i made it through the push-ups, sit-ups & back bends. sifu talked a bit while we were in line about knowing yourself & training harder. i was so lightheaded by then i didn't even respond. i skipped cleaning meditation to talk to a new girl who was crying in the changing room. she was overwhelmed & i knew exactly how she felt. i wish i could have cried or thrown up or something tonight. mister brewer was having a bday party for himself in midtown but i declined. choosing instead to have soup with the regular crew. quan tuo went to the party. the guys who ate were going too & wanted me to join but i opted to go home, walk the boyos, do some stinky laundry, take a shower & write this. over a fortnight has passed since i last trained at temple. i am amazed i made it through without collapsing. i must build up my stamina more. quan tuo & i stretch at home & practice so imagine how i would have been without that. i am afraid that building stamina may really require quitting cigarettes. i must meditate on this more.
more chi!!
i need it.
amituofo!

1 comment:

Unknown said...

i miss u!

two nights at work in a row where i didn't get home till after midnight...

so not happy...

good to read your blog...hope you're feeling rested...i myself am dreading the next time i can go - i felt cruddy last sunday too.

xoxox