humpday

this title is strangely fitting for not only is wednesday the middle of the week, this particular hump day is the middle of our cleansing fast. middle already? hell yes! if like the last time, this would be the day quan tuo & i devoured everything in the house - food, liquid, smokables. alas we have to wait til friday to do that. we do have the wine delivery that day too (danger!). seriously though, since this fast is longer we have to plan to ease back into eating solids & other liquids so as not to shock the shite out of our systems. last time, after the first hour of eating i had to take a bloody nap! followed by a tummy ache upon waking. but i survived that, as i will survive this.
it is recommended that we break the fast by starting with orange juice or some othe juice since i loathe orange juice. [perhaps yummy black current?] this should be followed by vegetable soup. i was thinking more of a huge salad & some hot korean soup. i shouldn't indulge too much in the planning at this point but it is definitely on my mind. in fact last night i was telling quan tuo that we should try different things every month - go meatless one week, go raw another week, no complex carbs another. experiment. i think as long as we are giving the body what it needs, it won't hurt to see how we feel on different diets. the word diet is so misleading. when you look it up in dictionary.com, it says:
1.
food and drink considered in terms of its qualities, composition, and its effects on health: Milk is a wholesome article of diet.
2.
a particular selection of food, esp. as designed or prescribed to improve a person's physical condition or to prevent or treat a disease: a diet low in sugar.
3.
such a selection or a limitation on the amount a person eats for reducing weight: No pie for me, I'm on a diet.
4.
the foods eaten, as by a particular person or group: The native diet consists of fish and fruit.
5.
food or feed habitually eaten or provided: The rabbits were fed a diet of carrots and lettuce.
6.
anything that is habitually provided or partaken of: Television has given us a steady diet of game shows and soap operas. –verb (used with object)
7.
to regulate the food of, esp. in order to improve the physical condition.
8.
to feed. –verb (used without object)
9.
to select or limit the food one eats to improve one's physical condition or to lose weight: I've dieted all month and lost only one pound.
10.
to eat or feed according to the requirements of a diet. –adjective
11.
suitable for consumption with a weight-reduction diet; dietetic: diet soft drinks.
if you notice, diet really means the type of food you consume but mostly everyone thinks it is about weightloss.
i bring this up because the last few days at the office, people have been intensely curious about what i am doing & why. inevitably the first question is why are you dieting? this question has a negative connotation, especially since i am fairly on the slender side. it is implied that i do not need to diet. but everyone is on some sort of diet & it need not be weightloss related & it certainly is not in this case.
thus far a couple of colleagues have asked me to forward them the info on the master cleanse. what they find most impressive is that i am not grumpy. [little do they know]. i definitely have substantially less pep but i am still getting things done & am altogether here [here]. perhaps i can inspire others. it would be good but not why i am doing this. the surprise is today i am not that hungry but i still have a sour stomach.

last night quan tuo & i spent the evening in front of the telly again this time watching the deadliest catch; sending me into daydreams about alaskan king crabs. i actually cannot remember the last time i had delicious steamed crabs with vinegar, garlic & hot sauce with hot rice. my tummy started grumbling immediately. [as it is grumbling right now!] this goes to show how the mind & the body constantly talk to each other unnoticed by us. quan tuo was telling me that they only eat the legs in most places these monsters end up & that is a terrible waste. i can't even entertain wasting food right now. of course there were other substantially more terrible parts to the show where another fishing vessel capsized & 2 people drowned & 1 disappeared despite the coast guards repeated search but all i was preoccupied with was how scrumptuous those gigantic crabs would be.
there was a point where quan tuo said he smelled pork & beans. right away i said i like pork & beans then suddenly i couldn't stop laughing. he correctly understood that anything would be great to eat right now. in between my giggles i tried to assert that i really do like pork & beans. our lemon drink was after that, no matter what quan tuo said, lackluster.
eventually i found a wonderful movie on BRAVO called all about my mother to watch & sniff along too. it's so beautiful. i remember watching this same movie with boom2 & his mom kept calling while we watched it & cried. quan tuo fell asleep somewhere in the middle of it. i woke him to have the detox tea i prepared (aka dessert) for us before going to bed.

today we were both on the same wavelength & bathroom time. i had terrible crampy feelings, that gnashing again or something that reminds me of twisting in my tummy. horrible'! quan tuo thinks i am not hydrated enough. i should check on that because it's ridiculously painful! we both had our salt water wash around dawn & went back to sleep for a bit. the boyos have been very understanding. they were staring at us from their queensize futon, waiting ever so patiently but not entirely quietly. yerper.
so the beat goes on. am going to have another "meal" now. i can't seem to shake feeling cold though.