day 2

i am feeling very disconnected today. i am here (here) but i feel strange. my senses are a bit sharper. i am assailed with so many smells, not just walking down the street but here at the office where i guess smells are more stagnant. i can tell you what everyone is having for lunch without looking at it. the olfactory is kicking!!
also i have always known but not noticed so much before how pretty food packaging is. often colourful & provocative, my eyes have been catching cool looking wrappers & containers & boxes with every step. sadly, my lemon drink isn't looking that good in my styrofoam cup (yes there are no environmental friendly cups around here sadly). i am using the same cup throughout the day though, as well as the same spoon. small things.
last night was pretty difficult for me. i had a horrible tummy ache with what felt like gnashing or something. i arrived home & took the boys for a walk. i must confess i had a couple of puffs of a smoke & that sent me into a crazy headrush & almost to vomit. it was nauseating. [only because i have not eaten!!] it took me few minutes to get my bearings then we proceeded to walk to the fruit store for more lemons. in all we walked a bit. the boyos seem to know something is up. they weren't insistent on anything per say. it wasn't as luxurious a walk as they usually have. i went home & found myself at a lack of things to do. not that i had a lot of energy to use.
quan tuo came home a wee later & we hung out & watched mindless telly. yes, there is a lot of food advertised on the telly so it was unavoidable. i wasn't so much hungry although i wouldn't have turned down one of those damned pizzas but it was more than my tummy really hurt. it's busy in there.
it was good to hear than quan tuo wasn't suffering the same fate. i know our bodies are very different & even our diets despite sharing a penchant for steak (dare i mention?). that evening, he was the impetus for the lemon drinks we enjoyed together. which meant he was exhibiting hunger, more than i was.
i feel like sleep is the only good thing to help with a tummy ache. especially if you cannot really feed it. sleeping keeps the tummy warm whereever possible. both quan tuo & i felt cold all day yesterday. despite having warm lemon drinks. i am cold right now writing this. a deep into the bones chill. kilig to the bones. i wonder what that is about.
so while watching the idiotbox until we got to one of my favourite shows future weapons, i kept zoning in & out. that show rocks. innovations are fantastic & really appeals to that part of me long dormant - at school, in war studies. it is always nice to have couch time.
the trick is to not have a sour tummy, such as i am suffering right now. at least i know this cleansing fast works. we took the detox tea before bed & we both were compelled to get up early & luckily not at the same time. several times. i had weird dreams. plus i felt a chill all night. then this morning with the salt water wash. the cycle continues.

on another note, i got some photos today from my friend sara espanol. she looks great & healthy & seeing the photos made me miss her all the more. marc from catalan was visiting & together they went to beijing. she calls marc snoopy which you know appeals to me so much. glad to hear some people are visiting her. as i should be doing & will be doing dammit.