sweating & not training

i cannot even imagine what it is like at temple though that's not true. i can in fact not only imagine it but i remember it with vivid clarity. it's bloody hot. august in nyc is always so sweltering, it's unbelievable that you can forget it once the cooler air of autumn arrives (we're waiting!). i am making good use of the summer & the facilities in the hood for both myself & the snapdragon. boyos too are having good times albeit with tongues to the ground & some heavy panting. alas thoughts always return to training.
i am half hearted about returning to shaolin kung fu. the love & desire is there to be sure but i think in part i wish to continue the chen style tai chi & make some decent headway with it. this proves to be difficult since the timing is off, way off. heng ji can try to get out of the office for snapdragon duty in time for kung fu but there is no way he can for tai chi. i am looking at the myriad options - ask a friend, pay a sitter, bring her to temple, etc - an hour is all that is required & i feel that somehow i can make this work. once i feel i have amassed the strength & the patience again & have learned something concrete from tai chi, i wil return to shaolin kung fu. after all, we are on a ticking timetable these days. both heng ji & i have our individual & comprehensive plans regarding what we want to achieve before the inevitable move out of the niederwelt. i guess it is feeling more & more realistic. but do not fret, there is still time. must live in the moment, yes.
at this moment, i am actually not sweating & not training. something has to be done about that. yes, think cool thoughts.